filmwizdaddy
06-02-2004, 12:18 PM
Hi Yall it has been a while since I got on here.
I want to tell you guys that I found Jesus this past weekend and I haven't been more happier in my life. I want to appologize for any bad comments that I have made on this forum. I am truly sorry.
I am not sure how everyone elses life is going right now.....but I have been struggling for quite sometime now and finally I have found some peace in my life. You see most of my pain and suffering has occured mainly these past 4 years. The truth is I really do not have any friends as I have lost them all back in college. I have tried to live my life without god and tried to find my way by myself and it didn't work. I am just glad there are people on here that were able to listen to me even if no one did out there. There are mean people in this world and I have come across many in life and expect to face people like this throughout my life. The one thing that I now understand is in people's apathy the best thing to do is to just be kind no matter what. In my life there has been little kindness for a longtime. The only thing that I can do is be kind and hopefully it will make someone's day a little brighter. To many that may sound corny but I assure you that when you are as low as you can get the only way to go is up and I understand that love is the way and the only way. I can't imagine those individuals who are foster kids or those without loving parents. We all need love in this world. Being a guy it is very hard for me especially to open up and be vulnerable to love and just to be vulnerable period. It takes a strong person to admit his faults and admit is problems. I am no where near perfect but I am glad that I have found some peace in life.
When I hold up two fingers apart it means peace. It is what we need...peace love and understanding. Like I said, if none shows kindness that is genuine, I will, for it is the only way to stop hate.
Be I want to thank you for your lyrics. Much of what is say I can relate to in my personal life. "Music for Carnivores" you talk about those who don't know they hurt you.....I have faced that. "You get nothing"....people have promised me so much in my life and they have fallen short. You also state in the song that people's apathy over whlem us and getting angry (crucifying your patients) will come to haunt us. Thank you.
The only thing that matters to me is being with people that care for one another. I have been around those who don't. This is about finding peace in life, finding true love, and finding true understanding in those who care.
According to my parents....I am adopted and I have talked about it before. If someone asked me would I trade my friends,family, Jesus, feeling of love, for a bunch of money....the answer is and has always been NO. I have things in my apartment. I can buy more. What good is any "things," without those to share with it. Even with someone to share it with....things and money don't make the world go round. It is people and god.
I truly hope someone day I will get a chance to see my sister and family. For those who take the time to read my post. Thank you.
See you around...
-BAB
I want to tell you guys that I found Jesus this past weekend and I haven't been more happier in my life. I want to appologize for any bad comments that I have made on this forum. I am truly sorry.
I am not sure how everyone elses life is going right now.....but I have been struggling for quite sometime now and finally I have found some peace in my life. You see most of my pain and suffering has occured mainly these past 4 years. The truth is I really do not have any friends as I have lost them all back in college. I have tried to live my life without god and tried to find my way by myself and it didn't work. I am just glad there are people on here that were able to listen to me even if no one did out there. There are mean people in this world and I have come across many in life and expect to face people like this throughout my life. The one thing that I now understand is in people's apathy the best thing to do is to just be kind no matter what. In my life there has been little kindness for a longtime. The only thing that I can do is be kind and hopefully it will make someone's day a little brighter. To many that may sound corny but I assure you that when you are as low as you can get the only way to go is up and I understand that love is the way and the only way. I can't imagine those individuals who are foster kids or those without loving parents. We all need love in this world. Being a guy it is very hard for me especially to open up and be vulnerable to love and just to be vulnerable period. It takes a strong person to admit his faults and admit is problems. I am no where near perfect but I am glad that I have found some peace in life.
When I hold up two fingers apart it means peace. It is what we need...peace love and understanding. Like I said, if none shows kindness that is genuine, I will, for it is the only way to stop hate.
Be I want to thank you for your lyrics. Much of what is say I can relate to in my personal life. "Music for Carnivores" you talk about those who don't know they hurt you.....I have faced that. "You get nothing"....people have promised me so much in my life and they have fallen short. You also state in the song that people's apathy over whlem us and getting angry (crucifying your patients) will come to haunt us. Thank you.
The only thing that matters to me is being with people that care for one another. I have been around those who don't. This is about finding peace in life, finding true love, and finding true understanding in those who care.
According to my parents....I am adopted and I have talked about it before. If someone asked me would I trade my friends,family, Jesus, feeling of love, for a bunch of money....the answer is and has always been NO. I have things in my apartment. I can buy more. What good is any "things," without those to share with it. Even with someone to share it with....things and money don't make the world go round. It is people and god.
I truly hope someone day I will get a chance to see my sister and family. For those who take the time to read my post. Thank you.
See you around...
-BAB